*sighs*

   It's holiday time so if anything, it's suppose to be a time to be jolly. Maybe I am backwards this season. Also I am sure that that those of you who are also friends with me on facebook are probably wondering "What's going on with Kiki?!?!?!" "Normally she is so bubbly and silly but now we only see her complain about work." Stress is recently through the roof and the lovely cherry on top is I have to move out of the city. Even as I am writing this I am preparing to leave tonight for good. (Also why it's a short post.) So I suppose that this could have a smidge to do with my stress level.
     Honestly, do you want to know the biggest thing I am afraid of? My weight of course. I have gained a bit but at least I now know stress/water "weight" is not the same as weight gain from fat. I am nervous because I will be a great deal from the gym and I seem to be experiencing de ja vu. That's right I seem to be falling into some of my old work habbits. I remember applying for part time so that I can keep some sort of balance because if it was just as simple as working out at home I would have never became this unhealthy . Not even two weeks and now I have 8 day weeks! *chuckles* I need to learn how to politely decline because if I keep going like this, I will undoubtedly hit 400 pounds. I've always tried to look for the silver lining and say at least i'll be busy but that's exactly what I said last time. Until next time.
-SKBarnes