Can't quit now! (^_^)

  * Drum roll* Hey it's time for an update! How am I feeling today you ask? A lot better than I previously was. Allow me to elaborate. Lately, I have noticed that along with this goody bag of fluctuated weight, fat loss/ muscle gain, can and more than likely  be paired with fluctuated emotions. For example, sometime around Valentines Day, not exactly sure what day but I'm sure you get the gist of what I mean, I decided to take one of the trainers' suggestions and literally CARRY around the weight I have lost so far! (30lbs) Not only did I go up a flight of stairs but I also did a lap around the indoor track! I was so overcome with emotions that I had to leave. Mind you these were happy, proud, emotions however I did not wish to explain to onlookers (who may mistaken my joy for sadness) why I was crying. Actually, I was so happy I was telling everyone and I mean EVERYONE! (>_<)
     The following Monday, I was totally pumped and ready to go to Zumba. I was especially excited to see a fellow friend return from her hiatus due to personal reasons that I will not mention here out of respect for her. So, by this time class had started, everyone was dancing, it was great! Then around the third song I noticed it. Someone was standing outside the door with what appeared to be a cell phone recording and laughing. I really hope they weren't recording at least. I know nowadays people get their kicks by recording people and placing them on YouTube. So I did what came instinctively. I put on the best show I could and when the song ended, I smiled, waved and walked away. I only left my spot for a moment just to get my water because of course I couldn't quit now! After coming back home I could feel that something was different. There was this frustration being fueled by something I haven't felt since middle school. I mean normally if I saw someone looking at me I would just brush it off, keep going, and maybe even smile. Why not this? Why did this bother me so much to the point where I started kicking myself for not saying anything earlier? I wanted to speak about it. Really I did but to be honest, I just didn't want to come off as "That " person. You know the type. The one who always has something to complain about and never is satisfied. To be completely frank, I wanted to come on here and do a 30 page rant but I allowed myself a few days to cool off. I feel sometimes we can say things out of anger that we don't really mean so I took a time out. Don't worry, I'm much better now. (^_^)

Until next time,


-SKBarnes

Also, I almost forgot. If you were just wondering what 30lbs, in the right place, looks like. Then look no further! (^_^)